I was born and raised in China till I was 8 years old. The only
reason why I eventually moved to America at an age of 8 was because my
mother went abroad to get her masters
degree, and since then we have stay and lived here in America. Just
like any Americans I have went to elementary and secondary schools, and
even got a bachelors degree in secondary education in math. Took
the constitution tests, served in the judiciary system of becoming a
Juror, and voted. I even talk without an accent, and uses slang words
like "like" and "OMG" in my sentences. I feel in terms of integrating
myself in the American ways, I already immersed in it and more. So you
wouldn't think of me to make the statement "The color of my skin does
make me feel as an outcast in the American Society". Not everyone makes
me feel that way, but enough to know this American
Dream will tolerate, but will not fully accept every one and every
race.
I want to share with you my feeling of being an
Asian living in America, it is not easy. I experienced it first hand
when I first attended elementary school. I attended a predominately
Caucasian populated elementary school in Lombard, IL. At that
elementary school I
was among a handful of Asian kids, and we stick out like a green
thumb. I was just a kid, like any kid that wanted to fit in in a new
school. In the playground I
wanted to play with the Caucasian kids, so I would try to join their
groups. One of the 3rd or 4th grader girls though it would be funny to
play a trick on me, so they told me I could join them, but on one
condition - I had to go and talk to that group of boys . So I did, but
as I was
talking to the boys and turned around to point to the girls, they
started
laughing at me. I knew then they had tricked me and wanted a good laugh
at my expense.
Although a small incident, it was both mean spirited
and obvious showed what they thought of me. I knew if I was Caucasian I
probably wouldn't had to experience that, and if I had known how to
speak English I wouldn't have been called a "doll". I would have a better chance been accepted if I looked more like everyone else. I
still remember that moment vividly, and it still hurt to know such a
small incident long time ago could still put a pain in my heart. It was
unfortunate I had to through that, as adults we sometimes forget kids
teasing could be the reason why a child retaliate, or why he/she doesn't
want to go to school. The kid is just a kid, small and innocent, and
should not have to be a victim of teasing because of race. Today I
understand it better and
realized their parents probably didn't know better therefore didn't
teach their kids well. But today we do know better, therefore should not let this
happen to anyone.
Where does tolerance of others come from? I think it comes from positive influences, in this case positive influences acknowledged of that culture. To start that understanding I would like the media to
share more positive shows and information about China. Instead
of always showing Americans in debt and borrowing money from China, why
not show China's positive influences of respecting their elders. I have
seen so many times on the bus and on the train the same scenario, a
pregnant lady or an elderly getting on the bus, and no one gets up. I
feel because Americans didn't have a historical background like China,
everyone base their ethics believes on TV drama and celebrities.
People know instantly what Miley Cyrus did on the vmas compared to what
is
going
on in Syria. And I would love it someday when I see more Asians in TV
and magazines, not as a ninja/kung fu character like in the movie
"Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon" or owning a dry cleaning business or a store in Chinatown. I just want an Asian person to be
portrait normally in
a show, although I know I could do a few karate chops, but majority of
the times I am not doing that. I think a normal Asian person in an
American TV show would show everyone we are just like everyone else,
with feelings but just with different skin color.
For those
that are reading this and have traveled to China, I applaud you on your
bravery. For those that haven't, just do it. Go out there and see for
your self. This isn't for me, it is for you to experience that moment
when you first
step foot in a country with people that doesn't look like you. If you
prefer another country like Africa, Korean, Japan, India, do so. I think
everyone should do it at least once before they die, in my opinion
it's in China, but that's because I am Chinese. Please let me know what
your take is on this, love to hear your opinion.
Thanks for stopping by, thanks for reading my blog!
Have a wonderful day!
Jennifer Chan